Wow what a holiday, the kind that makes you realize how true the simple stuff is, how you should cherish the people closest to you. My daughter Shpresa (which means Hope in albanian)was truly tested these past few days. I first have to say how much I admire her, She is such a loving strong woman. She's 21 but so much farther than I ever was at her age, I smile just thinking about it.

Her strength has been tried these last few days, earlier Monday morning her friend from Georgia, Ashley was driving to Florida with her 2 children, Hannah 10 months and Skylar 3 years. They were In Fort Pierce, it was 2:30 am, there was a accident in front of them, it was unavoidable. Hannah bless her, wasn't hurt, but poor Ashley and Skylar didn't fair as well. Skylar was trauma hawked to a hospital here in West Palm Beach. Ashley was taken to a local Hospital in Fort Pierce. Ashley had bruised her heart  and is in ICU.

Skylar Im told was on life support her little body unable to hold on. She was brain dead. My daughter and everyone that knew these people were heart broken. My daughter kept saying I understand when old people die I dont  understand this. Sometimes we don't ever understand it, Shoot it was hard on me and that was just from seeing my daughter, I dont even want to imagine the effect this had on Ashley, her husband and their families.

The balance that the universe gives came just in time, my Niece Tina was going into labor. This was Tina's first baby and the first of the next generation Sylas. Shpresa and Tina are very close, thay have been since the first day they met. Tina was 15 when she came here from Yugoslavia. Shpresa although younger took it upon herself that her cousins learn english and get accustom to life here in America. Shpresa the little mothering goddess that she is flourished in this responsible that she easily put upon herself. She was there when Tina Graduated from High School, experienced bad relationships, and when Tina finally found Harry her loving husband. Their wedding and the excitement of there baby. Tina had Ariana Elle Chu at about 8:40pm entering the world just as the first fireworks started to explode, How cool is that? And we're all given a hint that athough we dont always understand tradegy we have the wonder of birth to balance us out and push us on. I'm glad Shpresa was able to witness the full spectrum of life in these few days, In a more balanced way than most of us get.

Wow that was weird, my computer total bleeped out and I had to start over. My son has recently joined my quest for spiritual knowledge after our trip to Sedona last year. He reads his books and I read mine and we're forever comparing theories and ideas. Recently he has been more concerned with fighting evil forces around him. He's been cleaning up his life and partying less. After totally cleaning his room he bought himself a buddah from Spencers that was holding a blue globe that when plugged would be a accent light in his room. He came racing out of his room 'MOM omg MOM I was taking the thing out of the box and it lit up twice'. We giggled and were amazed, and added it to our list of unusual experiences he's had. He also experiences orbs alot too sometimes daily.

Well about a week past and he calls me after he had left for a friends house, " Mom I just had the weirdest thing happen. I was driving to Kelly's and my cell phone rang, the caller id reads 911 so a decide I better pick it up. Mom the voice on the other end wasn't an earthly voice it was ( at this point he imitates the voice) werid. It knew my name, and when he tried to laugh it off it got angry and said something about eating his bowels, at this point he hung up. In my mind it had to be one of his friends playing a joke and I totally brushed it off and told him not to worry. After hanging up, I felt bad because I could tell he truly was shaken up by this. At this point let me explain Tony is a smart well grounded 23year old man. He has a good job and is what society would consider a responsible kid. He's 6' and weighs about 240 which is all muscle; not much scares him. We talked again the next day and he seemed convinced that something evil was trying to scare him. Mom this is the second time something like this has happened to me remember that time I told you about, when I was on the phone talking about grandpa and the phone started ringing in my hand while I was talking and the orb was outside my window. At that time we just figured that was my dad trying to make his presence know to Tony. Plus mom how does someone use 911 as the number theyre calling from? I have been asking everyone I know and nobody knows how you can do that.

Well basically for him this confirms the fact that he needs to pursue a spiritual/ metaphysical path. If something is trying so hard to scare me from doing it, it must be afraid of what I might learn or do .... I can't tell you how meek and humble this makes me feel. It's that crazy cool feeling you have when you know things are the way you know they're supposed to be. And its cool to be optomistic for the future.